why do it?
think long & hard about breast surgery. dont get it to feel better about yourself or because a guy will like you more. i researched for 8 years before making the choice. i totally loved my old body, i was a nude model with small breast for years and absolutely loved myself. i didnt think having large breast would make me more beautiful or happy. thats the big question i hear a lot, why did you do that, you looked great. haha im not arguing with you, i’ve always looked incredible. i didnt get them to look great or feel better about myself, i already felt i was perfect as is.
i got breast implants for the same reason i get tattooed, i simply enjoy how it looks. its a body mod of sorts for me. i dont love myself any more or any less today, 3 months after the surgery. and that should be the ultimate goal. to still be happy with yourself. get happy before you make any choices, then do what you want.
Before & After
Pre-Op August 11, 2008
34AA
Post-Op September 18, 2008
34D
displacement
so remember how i was freaking out over the pics of implants being pushed up all crazy high? well at just 5 weeks mine started getting so soft and settling, and now, at 7 weeks, check em out!!
i’ve been slacking on photos but the changes are more subtle now. now its going to be more long term changes. but monday, when i hit 8 weeks i’ll take a ton of before and after style, maybe i’ll try on all my bikinis again!!! so stay posted!!!
5 weeks
my implants dont even feel present anymore. they feel and look real when i massage them. they still sit a tiny bit high, but the next month should level them out. they feel incredible, i can sleep on my stomach and not wear a bra. i see my doctor for the official After photos this thursday. then i move in 3 weeks, so it’ll be good to see her and get her approval before. shes been wonderful through the entire thing.
one downside you can see, the bottom inside of the, left one is flat. (its extra flat due to the angle of my arms, muscles pushing on it) no worries. the right one was last week, its scar tissue allowing it to settle, combined with the wire of the bra, i always sleep to one side, im a bad boob trainer. hahahaha so hence, no bra at bedtime and lots of massage should have it all smoothed out
i hit 6 weeks tomorrow so i’ll post a ton of photos, maybe get some old pics out and do a side by side!!
quick update
both boobs feel very real now. still look fake-ish, as they continue to drop & fluff they’ll become even more perfect. they arent super high still, just from the side is when i notice it. for now, i’ve settled at 34D bra size, which is like 4 sizes up from my 34AA old size.
everyday i make sure to massage them, its not some weird ritual to go through, its more just constantly smooshing them around, i lay on them for a few minutes before i get up and go to work, at work i push against my desk, especially from the bottom. one day i’ll be able to lift them to my collarbone, its close already. and they kiss in the middle, making great cleavage, im just not soft enough to wear a push-up bra yet. that’ll take time, it has only been 4 weeks.
im using Bio-Oil at night, i should be lotioning & oiling them up at least twice a day but i kinda suck at lotion. i can see the skin tightening and stretching as they heal, it feels warm. the lotion helps keep them cool, and makes me feel kinda sexy. haha and the incisions look great, no lumps or thickness building, just thin lines that should be fully hiden as they settle, right now you can only see if you have my breasts at above eye level.
everyday they feel or look different, so i have to keep that in mind. and new feelings are normal. yesterday i could feel my heart racing through the implant, like it was vibrating it. haha
squishiness
my right boob actually feels like a real boob today, kinda moves like it too. maybe its starting to drop & fluff. still looks fake-ish haha the left one is still very fake, and more firm. im always working on that side as it was my tighter and higher side. when i smoosh them together for cleavage at the bottom inside of the right one, its flat, only maybe a half inch space, so im hoping i can help massage that to even it out, nobody sees the bottom but still, i want perfect ya know? i’ve seen photos of another lady with the flatness in her cleavage and after a month its smoothed itself out. its just scar tissue becoming accustomed to the implant. i cant wait till both feel as real as the right one does. i guess i need to massage more on the left side. doesnt help that i start my period in a couple days so theyre already kinda sore. tons of fun! hahaha
the numbess goes away more every few days, i keep telling myself the massaging and dragging my fingers over the numb/tingly parts helps the nerves grow back quicker. haha either way, i get used to the feeling. it’ll be great to be like 2-3 months post-op and see the full changes in the photos.
titty!!
still only 19 days out, still high and very round. but getting softer!!
14 days out
1 week
2 weeks
anyone but me see the subtle differences from last week? theyre settling more, getting softer, more natural, well as natural as fake tits can look i guess. the left side shows it a lot, last week it was still super round, it still is but slowly dropping. im stoked. i’m massaging more and more everday, anytime they feel sore i realize, even before implants, it hurts when youre groping and squeezing your boobs. haha i laid on the floor instead of the bed, on my belly to help compress them and stretch the pocket, and wow, the floor is a lot harder. haha took the wind out of me for a second. but after a few rounds they feel so much better.
“complication”
my only issue so far as been a mondors cord that just showed up. they are harmless and go away on there own. i can use a hot compress if they hurt at all, which they only do when i push on them. (smart huh? haha) a mondors cord is basically pissed off blood vessels. a lot of tiny pieces are having to rebuild themselves so its all normal, id be bummed if my body didnt try to fight back a little ya know? anyways, i thought i’d post a pic to show you what and how tiny and obscure they are.
today i’m just 13 days out, and my incisions are healing wonderfully, i’m having a perfect recovery. i was told to start getting used to gentle massages, just getting used ot moving the implant. i’ll probably make an appt to get my surgeon to show me some more massages, im just not comfortable with it yet. i know it will be another week before i can begin to fully mash them around but i feel like im too afraid. like how hard do i need to squeeze, and am i squeezing the implant or just my own boob? haha im a show and learn kinda girl. right now i can push them together, banging cleavage and i can lay on my stomach which is a great massage to just stretch the pocket a bit. it feels like im laying on a pool float though. hahaha i’ve seen photos of some massage that have women pushing the implant all the way up, to almost the collar bone.
i dont know if that comes with time or if i should already be able to do that, im assuming time. i personally dont want them to be able to jiggle that high. hahahahahahaha my doctor didnt try to push them like that or say i should, every doctor is different and bases your instructions on your body. i really love mine, shes wonderful. i see her again in 5 weeks for post op photos. shes very pleased with how great they look already. now just waiting for them to be soft and smooshy!!!
